What changed? Me.
How did I get to a deeper level of understanding of my being? Growth.
How did I get there? Learning, understanding, accepting and allowing. All this with supportive, loving people in my life. Support was essential.
My oldest daughter was getting ready to graduate, I was going through a transition in my career and just feeling like something was missing in my life. I felt a hunger that couldn't be satisfied by eating food. I wasn't hearing my own voice and I couldn't see myself in my own future. Was this a mid-life crisis!? Was I in crisis!? Now I realize ... I was in chrysalis mode!
chrys.a.lis: noun. figurative a preparatory or transitional state.
I was changing.
I was hungry and fed myself by learning. Learning about so many different things to aid in my growth and being taught by so many wonderful people in my life. Friends, mentors, books, and classes. I was so eager to learn. Even my children and my husband unknowingly taught me lessons about myself.
I was in chrysalis mode. Evolving. Changing. Being in and photographing nature was so fulfilling and nurturing to me. I learned a lot from the natural process of Mother Nature.
"The caterpillar had the seeds of transformation, the imaginal cells, within her all along. But she had to die completely to her old life to be born into the new form that was her true nature, essence, and destiny." - Joan Borysenko, Ph.D author of Saying Yes to Change
A year and half later, I am hearing my own voice, I am feeling empowered and AWAKE. There are times when I do feel like crawling back into the chrysalis. And I do, I retreat and sit back. Listen. But it's not to go backwards, it's a continual learning experience. Isn't that life though?
Beee U to full! I love hearing the full story of how this came to be. Wonderful!
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